After quite a while, I have decided the time has come for me to begin writing again (or rather posting my writing again). In the midst of transition, I sit amidst a new world tonight. This world is quiet and peaceful. The air is surprisingly still and yet still cool, a blessed relief compared to the familiar southern heat. We have been living in Ohio for 8 days now. While I find the beauty of this place captivating and the serenity comforting, I am still homesick for Georgia. The reality that this is now my home (at least temporarily) has not set in; I feel as though any day now I will pack a suitcase and return to my true home in Georgia.
Tomorrow is the beginning of the biggest change yet: the first day of my internship. I feel nervous, a bit excited, and mostly apprehensive about all the uncertainty that lies before me. It will be a year of learning and growth I am sure. I imagine it will be a year of learning and growth in many domains, besides just my profession. Nevertheless, I feel the burden of anxiety that always accompanies the unknown. It is all a part of change, and I am doing my best to embrace change in my life these days.
Perhaps it is the new environment or possibly the fact that I am finally unbound from endless school and multiple jobs, but I have already seen changes beginning to take place within myself. They are small, seemingly irrelevant changes, but they are changes nevertheless, and they are changes that are meaningful to me. I am not rushing through life nearly as quickly these days, enjoying time and taking each moment as it comes. I am reveling in the natural beauty all around me and allowing myself to appreciate the feel of the breeze against my skin, the scent of honeysuckle permeating the air, the sound of birds chirping and chimpmunks scampering about the yard. I am enjoying the pleasure of time spent with my sweet husband and my precious Dakota. While we are all still adjusting to the recent move, Dakota seems happy here. Hubby and I take him for long walks in the evenings and he literally bounces through the tall grass and hay, filled with playful energy. At night, he sleeps in the bed with us, usually curled between us and I find myself reveling in those moments as well, the warmth of his fur resting on my shoulder. There are other changes as well. We have started cooking dinner each night and sitting down to eat together at the table. Perhaps that sounds normal, but until recently, it has been an a rare occurrence for us. The changes are really nothing more than embracing simple pleasures and yet it is the simple pleasures that make life worthwhile.
As I watch the moon, half hidden behind wispy clouds, I wonder what tomorrow (and the year ahead) will bring. Whatever it is, I feel happy tonight. I feel at peace. And that feeling cannot be overestimated...it is truly a blessing!
I am glad to see you blogging again and sharing your well expressed thoughts with your friends. I am thinking about you and praying for you as I do daily, especially as you embark on the new adventure of internship. Through this you will give much of yourself and you will also learn much about yourself and others. What a blessing you are to everyone who knows you, and what a blessing you will be to all those who will soon meet you. Enjoy your day, and I will be excited to hear about it. God bless you, my little one!
Posted by: Mama Grace | July 01, 2009 at 09:37 AM